it's just really hard

...some people stay awhile,, and leave footprints on our hearts...

is it really that hard to let go of someone? or is it just really hard because u're still hoping there would be a chance? sometimes i think there's such an empty hope,, and i feel so stupid for hoping something that i don't know whether it is good to be expected or not...

but, my friend said: "mit, i guess that is not a wise way to say a feeling as an empty hope because there is no such empty hope.. i think it's just a process that makes it all worth to learn in the end, regardless you end up to get what you want or not.."

(speechless,, thinking about what he said..)
and i think he's right.. there's no such empty hope.. i believe,, God always know what the best for us, regardless whether we want it or not.. So i pray: "God, please.. if you allow me to even try to be with him, lead me to the way closer to him.. but, if you think he is not good enough for me, then help me to kill this feeling.." i just don't wanna continuously trapped in the past till sometimes i forget how it feel to fall in love for someone.. and the worse part is, i miss to feel those kinds of butterflies in my stomach whenever i see someone..

i wonder if he is not the best for me, why did i meet him? but sometimes i think, maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one,, so that when we finally meet the person,, we will know how to be gratefull..